"I know, my God, that you test the heart and are pleased with integrity ..."
-1 Chronicles 29:17
I was searching my Bible for verses for men and I found that a lot of them pertain to fathers are such. There are verses for men, but I didn't find any that lend to what I wanted to write about, so this one from Chronicles will do.
Lately I have been going through a stage of what I like to call "Manning up". I quite like it to be honest. I feel I have gained respect from many people, even walking in and out of church, the amount of people who stop and talk to me, see how it's going and give me encouragement has been staggering. It is a great feeling now that people respect me. It has not always been so, but when God shows up, and you start listening, miracles happen. I was reading one of my many blogs that I read and I found this quote: "All of us want to experience a miracle. We just don't want to be in a situation that necessitates it." - Mark Batterson - evotional.com. (great blog btw, the guy is awesome) I am happy to say that I have experienced a miracle, and I am happy with what I went through to get here. Crap builds character. I wouldn't have the optimism I possess now without the pessimism that I had to deal with to get here.
My heart was and will always be tested. Integrity will be gained based on how I deal with each "test". God is pleased with testing me, and therefore I am willing to please God by passing the test, and learning from it. Learning how to delight in what God delights in is not always easy, but it is always the best.
"He has showed you, O man, what is good. And what does the LORD require of you? To act justly and to love mercy and to walk humbly with your God." -- Micah 6:8
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
The things you don't know
So in conversation this morning while I was at home sick from work, listening to A LOT of Techno, I found out that someone who I barely knew, and someone who I knew, but wished I has got to know better, had been praying for me. What a great feeling. Especially when they are both 1500 miles away in BC. It is nice to know someone has your back, even when you don't know they do. I just thought I would share this, and my appreciation for both of them. Thanks.
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
Broken, I Found New
In my attempts lately, I have found it difficult to be serious on my other blog, mostly because of the fact it illustrates me in a different time. Sure I still like politics, sports, and a few of the man crushes I have left over. Actually most of those are still there, what can I say? But I digress...
In all seriousness, God has been gracious to me. It's been a long time since I broke, at least if feels like its been that long. Creating a new person, with a new attitude, and a new lease on life takes time. I wouldn't know, but I have been through the process. I take little, if any credit for my change. Sure and granted I do, and will, continue to screw up, but my outlook on life moving forward is significantly more positive then it was before. Significantly.
A lot of this boils down to a renewed relationship with God. Actually all of it does. When I broke, I had no other choice but to turn to Him. I don't know how other people do it; go on in their daily lives with out Him, and keep some level of happiness. I give those people credit, because I don't think I could ever do it.
Since I broke, fixing myself has been top priority. I feel I have made great strides in my own life. I feel I can give again, and why not? God has given me so much. I can't ever repay that, but I can do what little I am capable of to try and compensate. My unattainable goal is to become selfless. Impossible, but it's a goal I can always work towards, and one that will never stop being in front of me. It will always be something I can reach for, and the motivation will always be there. Trying is winning.
Work has got better. My attitude at work has got better, and it's being backed up this time by the people who I work with, not just what I think. That is huge. And I found someone special that is now in my life. Someone who, even in the short time that I have known, has given me more positives in my life then I could imagine. I have some stuff to work through, some baggage that I carry with me into this, but she accepts that. She is in the same boat, she is real, and she is just fantastic. I am absolutely chuffed (thrilled) about it. I thank God for her and for my new life.
The plan is to keep moving forward, keep making strides in my own life, my life with God. Everything will become clear through this. I've been so blessed lately its incredible.
So the new blog, if I can keep it up, will focus more on the serious aspects of life. This post seems almost enough in itself. We will see where it goes from here.
In all seriousness, God has been gracious to me. It's been a long time since I broke, at least if feels like its been that long. Creating a new person, with a new attitude, and a new lease on life takes time. I wouldn't know, but I have been through the process. I take little, if any credit for my change. Sure and granted I do, and will, continue to screw up, but my outlook on life moving forward is significantly more positive then it was before. Significantly.
A lot of this boils down to a renewed relationship with God. Actually all of it does. When I broke, I had no other choice but to turn to Him. I don't know how other people do it; go on in their daily lives with out Him, and keep some level of happiness. I give those people credit, because I don't think I could ever do it.
Since I broke, fixing myself has been top priority. I feel I have made great strides in my own life. I feel I can give again, and why not? God has given me so much. I can't ever repay that, but I can do what little I am capable of to try and compensate. My unattainable goal is to become selfless. Impossible, but it's a goal I can always work towards, and one that will never stop being in front of me. It will always be something I can reach for, and the motivation will always be there. Trying is winning.
Work has got better. My attitude at work has got better, and it's being backed up this time by the people who I work with, not just what I think. That is huge. And I found someone special that is now in my life. Someone who, even in the short time that I have known, has given me more positives in my life then I could imagine. I have some stuff to work through, some baggage that I carry with me into this, but she accepts that. She is in the same boat, she is real, and she is just fantastic. I am absolutely chuffed (thrilled) about it. I thank God for her and for my new life.
The plan is to keep moving forward, keep making strides in my own life, my life with God. Everything will become clear through this. I've been so blessed lately its incredible.
So the new blog, if I can keep it up, will focus more on the serious aspects of life. This post seems almost enough in itself. We will see where it goes from here.
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