Broken, I Found New

In my attempts lately, I have found it difficult to be serious on my other blog, mostly because of the fact it illustrates me in a different time. Sure I still like politics, sports, and a few of the man crushes I have left over. Actually most of those are still there, what can I say? But I digress...

In all seriousness, God has been gracious to me. It's been a long time since I broke, at least if feels like its been that long. Creating a new person, with a new attitude, and a new lease on life takes time. I wouldn't know, but I have been through the process. I take little, if any credit for my change. Sure and granted I do, and will, continue to screw up, but my outlook on life moving forward is significantly more positive then it was before. Significantly.

A lot of this boils down to a renewed relationship with God. Actually all of it does. When I broke, I had no other choice but to turn to Him. I don't know how other people do it; go on in their daily lives with out Him, and keep some level of happiness. I give those people credit, because I don't think I could ever do it.

Since I broke, fixing myself has been top priority. I feel I have made great strides in my own life. I feel I can give again, and why not? God has given me so much. I can't ever repay that, but I can do what little I am capable of to try and compensate. My unattainable goal is to become selfless. Impossible, but it's a goal I can always work towards, and one that will never stop being in front of me. It will always be something I can reach for, and the motivation will always be there. Trying is winning.

Work has got better. My attitude at work has got better, and it's being backed up this time by the people who I work with, not just what I think. That is huge. And I found someone special that is now in my life. Someone who, even in the short time that I have known, has given me more positives in my life then I could imagine. I have some stuff to work through, some baggage that I carry with me into this, but she accepts that. She is in the same boat, she is real, and she is just fantastic. I am absolutely chuffed (thrilled) about it. I thank God for her and for my new life.

The plan is to keep moving forward, keep making strides in my own life, my life with God. Everything will become clear through this. I've been so blessed lately its incredible.

So the new blog, if I can keep it up, will focus more on the serious aspects of life. This post seems almost enough in itself. We will see where it goes from here.